Numb

I feel nothing inside. Every morning I wake up because I have to. Not because I want to. It takes a good hour for my morning prescription to kick in so until then I feel nauseous and my back is on fire. Once I feel better I have about two hours worth of not feeling … Continue reading Numb

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Not a fan of my new doctor

I have an appointment on Wednesday. I haven't been to the doctor in years. Not because I didn't want to, but because I didn't have the insurance. I thought finally getting approved for Medicaid would be the answer to my prayers. However, it is more a hassle than anything. No one wants to accept Medicaid, … Continue reading Not a fan of my new doctor

It’s so hard to say goodbye to yesterday

I am screaming at the top of my lungs but no one hears me. I wake up every day, even though I don't want to. I'm in pain and everything hurts. Not just my body but my mind, my heart. When I laugh it feels empty. When I smile it feels fake. There is no … Continue reading It’s so hard to say goodbye to yesterday

The past has passed…. but I’m not sure I like our future

I am so fucking tired of turning on the computer and seeing the tragic results of events that have become so common. Shootings, beatings, serial killer arsonists... if you can think it, it's probably in the headlines today. Why? I mean, have we always been like this and it's just a difference of social media … Continue reading The past has passed…. but I’m not sure I like our future